I'm so damned fucking fed up with 'wishful thinking'! This is the only life I'll ever have. I do no longer have time to fool around. I'm desperately in need of a pause, a holiday, a timeout. And actually don't see no chance to have either of whatsoever. Could everybody, please, be more carefull with the lifetime and energy of others, not only of the energy and lifetime of whatever kind of significant other?